My doTERRA Story Part 2: Learning and Growing

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This is the second part in my doTERRA story, read the first part here.

Learning Process

I spent the months after enrolling in doTERRA pouring over the materials Tammy gave me. I was trying to learn everything I could and soak up all the information about essential oils I could find. I tried, unsuccessfully, hosting classes and trying to share with it people. My biggest problems were fear, desperation, and mental health. I’m certain that people could feel the negative yuck radiating from me, even if they didn’t consciously know it.

I need to mention that I was abused before and during this time in my life. I just hadn’t understood it was abuse yet. The abuse was subtle and I didn’t understand what was happening and why I felt horrible all the time. I now know it was mental and emotional abuse. I was a mess on the inside, feeling completely insecure, worthless, dumb, etc. I felt like I was inferior to every single person on the planet. I wanted to die.

Business Training- Not What I Expected

doTERRA business training is amazing! It all begins with working on yourself. Truly self-development is the best place to start when trying to build anything worthwhile. I realized I was a mess so I stopped teaching classes and instead focused on self-development. I knew I had to take a step back from building a business even though I didn’t want to. I then felt shame and guilt that I wasn’t doing what I committed to Tammy that I would do and I wasn’t earning the money my ex-husband expected me to make. Those expectations led to more negative thoughts which drove me back into an even worse depression even though I was still trying to do my self-development. I read books and watched webinars and did so much to help my mind heal, but I wasn’t getting better the way I wanted to. I want to mention here that there is no way I could have struggled through to build a successful business of any kind at this moment in my life. I had to get out of the abusive situation first, allow myself real time to heal, and only then could I move forward. And that process was HARD.

Getting Out And Getting Away

In 2014, I got divorced. I quit doing everything except basic survival. I wasn’t sleeping or eating well. I spent a good year-and-a-half in survival mode before I was able to begin real healing. I quit my job so we could move to Las Vegas. Then I found a support group of women who were in, or had been in a similar situation as me. These ladies became my friends and helped me move forward into the pain and eventually out of it again. I recommitted to my self-development process again by going back to school to do Fashion Design, which I loved.

As I re-gained confidence in my abilities, I was able to tackle more of the mental gunk that was messing with my brain. The yuck that plagued me came off in layers, (parfait anyone?). Once I got through the stuff from the outside abuse, I had to learn to stop abusing myself with my own thoughts. It’s one of those things that nobody likes to talk about, but it’s so important we talk about it. Too much negative self-talk can become self-abuse. I kept telling myself that I was worthless and stupid among a gross amount of other negative stuff. I thought I had gotten out of the abusive situation, but I wasn’t truly away from it. Because I had been around it so much I was in the habit of doing it to myself. I couldn’t get away from it completely until I learned how to think differently about myself, my story, and life.

In 2015 doTERRA came out with the Emotional Aromatherapy kit and I was estatic! I was so excited for that collection of oils because I needed major support in processing the trauma I had been through. My favorite at the time it came out was Cheer and Motivate. Now, that I’ve healed quite a bit and I’m moving forward with my dreams I’m in love with Passion. I still use Motivate often because it’s hard to move forward in the direction of your dreams and I often need a little push to remind myself that I can do it even though it’s hard.

Through these series of experiences I learned to use a lot of doTERRA essential oils in a way that supported my mental health. The research on how essential oils work in your brain is really quite amazing. For all things essential oil research go here. I also learned that nutrition is often a large factor in mental health issues, which is something I still struggle with. I do use supplements, which helps, but in the coming months I’ll be working on improving my nutrition by changing what I eat.

To read part 3 of my story go here.

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