Why You Need To Talk About Your Goals and Dreams

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When I originally wrote this post I was struggling with feeling worthy, as if my life and my dreams didn’t matter, like I was worthless. I was in a depressive funk and wasn’t sure I would actually graduate from school because getting anything done took massive effort and that made me feel exhausted. I was feeling burnout. I was just like this deflated balloon, barely afloat. I had so many ideas and dreams and I couldn’t work on them just yet. It was difficult to finish school because I was so ready to move onto the next projects on my list, this website, my circle skirt brand, and my doTERRA business. I had the following experience which really helped ignite my fire again.

I wrote this on August 8th, 2019:

“Today has been a day and it’s barely after noon. I didn’t sleep well last night, which means that today probably won’t be as productive as I want it to be. I woke up with my alarm at 6am and I really didn’t want to get out of bed, but I got up anyway. I got Ruby some breakfast, got her set up on my Fire Tablet to watch Octonauts on Netflix, and then I climbed back in bed to rest. My brain has been so foggy all day and I feel like the worst mom on the planet (I know I’m not, but feelings can kill).

A few minutes before 9am, I heard a loud knocking on the door. Amber went to open it, and I realized I totally spaced the appointment I had made with two wonderful ladies from church (my ward Relief Society President and the stake Relief Society President). I jumped out of bed, threw on some clothes, and came downstairs. We had a great chat for just over 30 minutes before they left. They let me talk about my business ideas and goals, which was something I desperately needed.

I’ve been in the throes of finishing school for weeks and there’s always more to do. I can see the finish line weeks away and I’m struggling to get everything done. I’m struggling to find the money needed to create the portfolio booth I want so badly (I don’t want to settle, I want to be extra of course. It makes me feel good). I’m even struggling to get my internship hours done. Basically I’m just a hot mess of struggle.

This morning though, I was given a precious gift. Two people I don’t know very well came to visit me. They know that I exist. And now they know that I’m struggling. They aren’t judging me for coming down to meet them in my pajamas or for the fact that my house is a disaster. They listened to my ideas of what I plan to do when I graduate, they listened to my past experiences (that I still, unfortunately, need to talk about sometimes), and they shared little snippets of their own experiences. I got so excited to share my ideas and dreams and goals. The gift of remembering what I’m working so hard for has made today a better day. I am excited to finish school, work on this website, and build businesses. It’s the daily grind that gets me down. The daily task list that only grows as I accomplish a task. The constant interruptions from family or classmates. I know I spend too much time feeling alone, even when I’m surrounded by people. Today, though I am finally not feeling lonely.

I like to spend a lot of time by myself doing my own work, but one thing I need to work on is planning time to be around other people. It lifts me up so much and sharing my ideas with non-judgmental people is always a boost.”

I’m Really Just An Old 5-Year-Old

After the visit I felt like this little girl, happy even though (or maybe even because) I was a mess. Honestly, I feel like a 5-year-old on the inside, like all the time. I want to skip and be bouncy and wear fun twirly skirts! I want to laugh and be silly and eat ice cream! But most of all I want to share my ideas and talents and help people.

To keep feeling excited about what I’m doing I need to talk to more people about what I do, my hopes, my dreams, and sometimes how hard it all is. If you’re feeling burned out, depressed, anxious, unsure of what to do with your life or anything, go find a safe person to talk to. Find someone who will listen and support you in your current feelings, circumstances, goals, etc. If you don’t know who to talk to yet, send me an email, I would love to hear about your struggles and dreams. Just know that I am not a professional of any sort, except for making circle skirts and being Dianna.

I’m so happy to be done with school! I finally get to fill my days with writing, designing, teaching, and sharing all the things I’m passionate about.

Tell me: Are you like me where you get bogged down by the daily grind? Are you energized by your to-do list? Or, are you somewhere in the middle?